Thursday, March 26, 2009

Twillight obsession has begun...

I know this has nothing to do with being a single parent but lord i can't put the books down. HELP ME!!! lol

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Life is rocking!!!!!

So, I went to brunch with a friend. Tinker was awesome. The food sucked!!

I wonder somethimes what I will tell Tinker when she is older and she asks me why her daddy isn't around. I plan on telling her that her father and I chose not to stay together cause we didn't get along. I feel that is the best I can tell her until she can fully understand why. I plan on telling her the truth of what happened and why I left.

Back to why life is rocking.

I have been happier now then I have ever been. Well except the other day when people tried to start drama with me. I am around people that truely care for me and want me to succeed!!! I am just so happy. LIFE IS GOOD!!!!!!

Monday, March 23, 2009

What is wrong with people?????

I am slowly finding my happiness and well people are starting to try to end it. I don't know what I have done to deserve this. All I want is for Monkey and I to be happy. I hate that people can't keep to thier own business and keep out of mine. I am through with drama! I am cutting it out period end of discussion.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

a small piece of heaven...

When i look into my daughters eyes i swear it is a small piece of heaven. I hope and pray she never loses that look in her eyes. She is the reason i wake everyday. I wonder how anyone could give her up. She is quirky and smart. She is 2 and I am so amazed at her everyday. I wonder what she thinks when she gets to playing with something. She has started asking me questions about things. I fear the day she actually understands everything. She is just to damn interesting. I love my daughter with all my heart. I love to watch her sleep. Not only is it time i get to have to myself but she is so darn cute!!!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

So, Helping my mother...

So, my mom found a place and now we have to pack up and move. It is further out of the way. Means I am going to be driving even further for a job. I want to live in Pensacola so it is worth the drive. Just sucks that it is that far out. The house has a pool and a play set for the kids. My mom seems to really like this house. The neighborhood seems well enough too. I just hope my brothers don't seek out the same problems as they have in the last neighborhood.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

A little about what I will blog about and some history...

I am trying to keep an open record of my feelings and a running record of day to day things that single moms deal with.
I have been raising my daughter since Sept. '08 Her father and I had a fight that could not be fixed. I decided for the safety of her and myself to leave. I have struggled with life since. I recently came home to my mothers house. I am currently working on divorce and getting paternity established for Monkey.
I am dealing right now with a decision that I feel I shouldn't have to make. My daughters father seems to not want anything to do with her. I find it hard to understand his feelings on wanting nothing to do with her. It seems it is all or nothing with him. I just want Monkey to have her parents in her life. My decision is either to fight him for childsupport or give him the easy way out and ask for his rights. I fight the pros and cons everyday. I am open to suggestions if anyone has any.

My personal experiance as a single mommy.

I have decided to start blogging again. I miss it horribly.

Things have changed drastically since this post was made. So, I am going to revise it but keep the original post at the bottom. I have since gotten married. 

Me- I am mom, Fox, Mrs. B, or Mrs. A

Hubby- Dad, Mr. M, or Mr. A

The Daughter- R, Little Miss, or whatever name we have decided to call her at that moment.

Then we have the farm animals who we will do a complete post on at a later date. 

A little about us.

Me- I am Fox. I try to keep names out of my blogs so I come up with nick names. I am 27 yrs old and have become a single mommy. I am working on a relationship with an old friend that is taking its time. I am in no rush to get into another relationship. I am a very protective mother. My daughter is my number one and will always be my number one.

Monkey- is also known as Tinker or other names- is 2 years old and the love and center of my life. She is also kept close and protected. I don't let everyone meet her in person. She hasn't seen her father since Sept. 08. That is by his choice. I have tried very hard to keep in contact with him. He has said a few times that he isn't even sure if she is his. I know she is. We are going through a divorce and dealing with establishing paternity. Right now my daughter needs to heal and learn how much she is loved by the ones who love her.

Grand Ma- is my mother age is unknown- she is my back up in my life. I love her no matter how much she may cause me grief by being my mom.

PopPop- is my Father age also unknown- he is a truck driver that tries to see us when he can. We all love him dearly.

Grand Pa- is my step-father age not important- he keeps my mother happy and is currently deployed in Iraq.

Now we have my brothers:

Starting with the oldest

and last but not least